He never liked a man to talk too much

Especially his kin

Couldn’t stand complaining

And said quitters never win

He slowed down as he got older

Mostly toward the end

And knew me my whole life

But i never knew him

 

I’ve seen those dog eared old polaroids

Of a smiling little kid

Bouncing on his mama’s lap

Climbing on a fence

And I can’t make the connection

Despite the clear resemblance 

He lived a whole life among us

But we never knew him

 

Back when we were younger 

my cousins and I

He was the strictest man I’d ever met

I couldn’t understand why

Stay away from the shed out back

The garage and his room

Don’t you dare touch the remote control

Don’t go near any of his tools

 

he was the singer in a country band

Back when he was seventeen

Fell in love and started writing songs

Till one day she heard him sing

Once on the stage he pulled a diamond out

And got down on one knee

He was fearless looking in her eyes

Holding out that ring

 

He never shouted never harmed a fly when he was raising his kids

He worked to give em everything they’d need

He never called out sick

They knew that he could be relied upon

When something needed fixed

They knew he’d always be there for them

But they never knew him

 

He used to love to hold the little ones

When they woke up in the night

Singing softly in the darkness

Till the baby stopped crying 

The first time his girl called him daddy 

Grandma said tears welled in his eyes

She tried to ask about it later

But he wouldn’t say why

 

I’ve never seen him look at peace before

So this is pretty strange

Seeing him there in a suit and tie

10am on a weekday

The doctor told us that his heart gave out

That it couldn’t bear the strain

After years of silent hardening 

In his arteries and veins 

 

I’m sure I told him that I loved him

Because my parents told me to

I couldn’t tell ya when I said that last

I don’t know if it’s even true

I don’t know how a boy as kind and free

Could turn out like he did

I don’t know why his heart was trapped like that

But I never knew him